Now all that you see inside me is not the eternity of love,
It’s all gone with the strong smacks of life,
The day I feared of is finally before me,
These moments, extending like worst summers,
Smoldering into ma being and battering ma whole might..
Once again, you, before me,
It’s all finished, still its hurts…
The pain dwelling inside me tear ma days apart,
Why again…
I buried you and your memories, a lot before, in ma fallen tears,
I don’t know why you stab ma
broken heart again and playing with ma innocence,
it hurts my dear….leave me and find your way…
നിലാവില്‍ ഞാന് നനഞ്ഞു നിന്നു,
പൂമ്പൊടിയും പേറി പറന്നകലുന്ന കാറ്റിലും,
തീരം തേടി അലയുന്ന തിരയിലും ഞാന് നിന്നെ കണ്ടില്ല,
ലോകവുമ് അതിന്റെ അതിര്‍വരമ്പുകളും കടന്നു
ഞാന് നിന്നെ തേടി നീങ്ങിയപ്പോഴും
നീ എന്റെ ഉള്ളില്‍ നിന്നും എന്നെ വിളിക്കുന്നത് ഞാന് കേട്ടില്ലല്ലോ….
Oh dear soul mate,
I have all found all the paradises of heavens and earth in your heart,
Were I rest ma thoughts rest and words bloom,
Let us tie our hearts and hands together,
And move along the horizons of love,
You are my tears of joy,
Nothing other than you leads ma life in the dark,
You are the sun and you are the stars,
Even you are the thunder that gives ma life the shudders of warmth,
I find every source of ma happiness in you,
Which I could find only in you,
And I love you….
Before the endless blue sea,
And the eternal coverlet of the the heavens,
With the hands open I set,
All the boundaries of life stood invisible,
And all the footsteps of ma past are taken away,
I m here not to give farewel to the setting sun in tears,
But to tell that we will meet again,
And I ll wait here until our next meeting,
I am hee to hug you tight in ma heart and in ma thoughts,
And let you to…
Come back my sun, as a new day in the freash dew,
And peep into ma wisdom,
I will wait here where I am free from the diaries of time….
I am your footprint,
I was following you from the first step,
With your acquaintance or without,
I carried your tears,
I hold your broken dreams,
But you walked away from me,
I am not sure of your target …
But I was always with you,
On your journey to sins,
And to hell,
I called you back,
But you forced me to be with you,
As a final point while you sat in the shore of unconvinced choices,
And wailed murmuring that you are alone,
I wish if you turn back to me atleast once,
Before the waves take me to the songs of wind…
And once again I took that pen,
Taken from the corner of ma old broken room of thoughts,
Inside the torn dusty pages of ma dairy,
She was lonely in ma happy days,
She slept in the cradle of solitude,
Like an old lady with crinkles,
But now, I have to go bak and take it again to ma being,
As I have lot of tears to fill her ink,
And no more days of happiness,
Life and its preachings were above ma potential,
For years long, she was not found being found by anyone,
Otherthan the spiders and cockroach,
Finding their way to the dead enthusiasm in ma tomb,
Now oh dear pen, you are a writer’s wish,
I cry out thorugh her nibs,
In the darkness we both share our solitude,
And now the stream of songs takes birth in her as wonderful words…
ഈ ചിതല്‍ പുറ്റ്കള്‍ക്കും അപ്പുറം,
ഒരു കാലത്ത്‌, ജീവന്റെ പച്ചപ്പുണ്ടായിരുന്നു ,
അലമുറയിടുന്ന ഈ തിരകള്‍ക്കും അപ്പുറം
ശാന്തമായ തീരം ഞാന് കണ്ടിരുന്നു,
നിനക്കും എനിക്കുമിടയില്‍ ഞാന് ദൂരങ്ങള്‍ കണ്ടിരുന്നില്ല,
നിന്നില്‍ ഞാനും എന്നില്‍ നീയും അലിഞ്ഞു ചേര്‍്ന്നിരുന്നു അന്നൊക്കെ,
നിന്നിലൂദെ ഓടിമറയുന്ന ഓരോ പരിഭവങ്ങളും എനിക്ക് പരിജിതമായിരുന്നു ,
ഇന്നു നിന്റെ ലോകം എനിക്കജ്ഞ്ഞാതമാണ്,
ഇന്നു ഞാന് ഏകയാണ്,
തകര്‍ന്ന പാതകള്‍ക്കും അപ്പുറം ഇന്നെനിക്കു വിശാലത ഇല്ല,
അവശിഷ്ടങ്ങള്‍ക്കിടയില്‍ ഇന്നു ജീവന്റെ സ്പന്ദനങ്ങള്‍ ഇല്ല,
കാലത്തിന്റെ അന്ഗ്നിച്ചിറകുകള്‍ക്കിടയില്‍ വെന്തുരുകുന്ന
എന്റെ ചിറകുകളില്‍ തലോടാന്‍ ഇന്നു നീ ഇല്ല,
എങ്കിലും ഞാന് കാത്തുനില്‍ക്കുന്നു ,
എന്നോ എന്നെ വിട്ടകന്ന എന്റെ പ്രേമത്തിന്റെ
മാധുര്യവും ഹൃദയത്തില്‍ സംഗ്രഹിച്ചു കോണ്ട്...
Her deep blue eyes,
Having the depth of oceans and the romance of night blooms,
Strength of magnets to take me into its secrecity,
Words full of colognes flowing down from your eyes girl,
Take me to the sepulcher of ma vague wretchedness,
My passions are burning while I dive into its blue,
Her eyes made this ordinary guy a crazy poet,
And a wild lover…..
Like the soft drizzle, time walked forward,
I just followed it carrying the burden which life has given,
As a quiet follower of life,
As a looser before the world,
My precious sighs fall wrecked in the ground,
Reopening the shut door of old,
Unfolding the pictures which I never wish to see again,
All my promises to myself that I will never cry
Are now the utterly broken realities
Stars becomes me, compelled me to be aright,
In the dark ma feelings are, where I cry louder and broken,
With the soul beaten by love,
The darkness know what I am how crazy ma emotions are,
For it hide ma true self,
Once ma dream chrushed me and now forcing me to pretend I am alive,
It is so tough for me to fight against the twinging authenticities of love…
i stroll unaimed with excruciating requests filling my empty injured mind,
Through the pyres where the graves of ma dreams are…
I sat there and saw ma life passing with tears,
I have loved …lost… and made the world fear as it is too much for me to bear the pain,
You knew the beats of ma weak heart and still you sliced it,
My laughters turned to bitter tears,
And ma loving soul is now an aching goal inside me to take you again inside me and
Letting you to hurt me more,
I tried to hide ma pain inside ma words,
But they flood from ma songs,
I feel so unclear and unreal,but not ma pains, as they take position in me more and more each second…
This is me, myself,
I have no phony faces,
I am simply myself,
U can judge me from the first glimpse,
Coz I never wanna pretend decent or wicked,
I never wanna play drama with my life,
My feelings are not fake ,
They are true and honest,
My deeds are not performances,
They are not for a mere show,
My actions are from my words,
My words are from my heart,
I had a past,sometimes even I cant believe that,
I played games with my life many times,
But a person cannot be the same always,
Believe me,a person cannot be always d same,
Now you can trust me that I am sincere
Now you can consider me as honest,
I am myself,I have no false faces,
And this is my exact signature….
Attupooya swapnangalum, veenudanja sathyangalum,
Parannakalunna vasanthangalum, okkeyaanu enteyee spandhanangalkku koottengilum,
Pukayinna veenalilum jeevan tudikkunna ee astimaadattinu chuttum kulir tennalum,
Elam pookkalude punyavum und, tellakaleyenkilum neeyund….
Ninte oormakalummund…jeevitham chilappozhenkilum sundharamaakumalle koottukaaraa….….
The extraction of ma vexed heart are growing lengthy,
In search of you,
Wandering along the forlorn shores were we use to be,
And the vacant timbered benches under the
Collecting the nightmares to my peace,
If each tears of mine is counted as a day,
It is the time for me to die hundred times,
I saw the blank shore,
Where the seclusion of moonlight seize our position,
And the conked out slices of seashells
Along with ma compassion I could see there,
Resting in peace…
The scintillating minute star so far behind the waves,
Which were the signs of my hopes, are being faded out…
Around those benches under the
Boom the mourning of ma heart without you,
And the fallen leaves which is having the smell of our romance,
Are being taken to me, crushing ma life into thousands,
You at some other corner of the world you explore your happiness,
You may be moving through the beaches with holding the hands of your extacy,
Your legs may be wet in the waves carriying ma tears,
You enjoy that and walk away…
The breeze covering you are ma sighs in pain,
You enjoy that and walk away…..
